Learning to Let Go

I've never considered myself a Type A personality, but I'm finding lately that I don't do well with things that are completely out of my control. Surely I'm not the only one out there that feels this way, but the problem is amplified because I'm depending heavily on something outside of my control right now. I need to sell my house to make my goal of moving overseas a reality, but as hard as we're working to find a buyer, we still don't have a deal. I know - the economy sucks, the market is over-saturated with sellers, my master bedroom is on the second floor, old people don't like stairs, blah blah. I'm trying so hard to be patient, but this affects such a major part of my life at the moment that I am completely stressing out! I literally feel like I'm ready to jump into a beautiful body of water (the Pacific Ocean, perhaps?) and swim to a very happy place, but I'm unfortunately wearing a pair of cement shoes. Wow, that was deep, huh?

I guess I need to take a deep breath and try to enjoy the uncertainty and all that might bring. Plus, being 'stuck' in Austin, TX while things pan out isn't exactly a death sentence, is it? Case in point, while there was an open house today at my place, Bailey and I snuck out and enjoyed a couple of hours at beautiful Zilker Park in downtown Austin. And it was a magnificent day!



Self portrait



The house issue is also helping me to recognize other areas of my life that I need to try to let go of control over. Relationships with others, for instance. It feels like I've spent a lifetime trying to get people to feel a certain way about me... and let me tell you, I'm exhausted! I think I'll just sit back, relax and see what comes my way. Or at least line up that spot at the convent...

So if you need me in the near future, I'll be over here learning to let go. And hoping that things will work themselves out the way they are supposed to!